I honestly have no idea where to begin.
SO much has happened. TOO much. So, let’s start much like my life at the moment…
Clean. A completely wiped, shiny new, clean slate. It is was a difficult road to this moment, but I wouldn’t change a single thing. Even 2012. Well, I guess that’s not true – I would have one thing be different. But that’s for me to know.
This year has, once again, been filled with a lot of loss. Three of my dear friends were taken before their time. Friends once close are now distant. My relationship is ended. I have moved, FINALLY, into an apartment I am subletting until the end of April, and then – who knows? My job, which I LOVE, comes to an end on the same day I have to be out of the apartment. And while that may sound like a list of not so good things, all of these things have led to the place I am right at this very moment. And it is a good, if not a bit lonely at times, place.
The best part of this transition is the fact that my son and I are finally living alone. Just he and I. Like I have dreamed of for years. It’s has been and incredible experience getting to be his father without the hurdle of my mother being in the way. I get to cook. I get to decide what we eat. I get to wash the clothes and clean and make sure he has his lunch and all the other things a parent does. It is difficult doing it alone at times. But I love every second of it, because I love being his father.
I am going to end there, because I really don;t have anything to say. I just want to get back into writing here more often and I had to start somewhere. Sometimes, just doing anything is enough.
If you’re still out there, then I want to say hello and thanks for sticking with me.
Until next time.